Note: I actually wrote and posted this on Instagram yesterday. I just couldn’t get myself to post it here, because I was too busy loving the day so much.:)
I don’t even know if I can express to you how wonderful I feel right now. Despite being tired, because I didn’t get a lot of sleep last night...not because I’m cool or did anything exciting, but because I’m actually a total weirdo who somehow stayed awake for my own New Years (for the first time in many, many years), and got so energized, excited, moved, and high-on-life from seeing all of the fireworks all around me, and from getting to hug my grandma at midnight, that I couldn’t fall asleep until after 2am. And then, when I woke up at 5am and realized I could still catch New York’s celebration, and thus, hear Frank Sinatra sing “New York, New York” (obviously not live), there was no way I was going to fall back to sleep.⠀
So, I listened to Ol’ Blue Eyes on YouTube, and stretched, and went on the most beautiful walk...despite it being crazy windy—so windy that the phrase “I bet no person has ever walked in worse wind than this” went through my mind. (And yes, I did understand, even at the time, that it was a hyperbole, because there have definitely been windier days in Earth’s existence.) But the sun was the most beautiful soft, subtle shade of yellow, and I couldn’t possibly find words to describe the experience of seeing it.
And I just feel nothing but positive, loving, light energy moving in me and through me. And despite one part of my brain being crazy tired (the kind of tired where I literally just shampooed my hair twice instead of using conditioner), I’m going to try with everything in my will and power to stay awake, so that I can experience every ounce of this day—because I feel like sleeping would be a disservice to the wonder and majesty I sense pulsing within it.⠀
⠀Happy 2019! I have a (strong) feeling that this is going to be the best one yet.